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Monday, May 4th, 2009
3:24 pm - trying to help save Chuck


current mood: hopeful

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Tuesday, January 27th, 2009
12:05 pm
I had my eye on the cover of the new release of Harlan Ellison's Watching, and vice versa, most of the day at the library yesterday. Can anyone find verification of the identity of the model for it? (In the credits inside the book itself, I could only find the photographer's name, and Ellison's Web site has information on other covers, including one from the original release of that same title, but not the new version as of yet.) I have a hunch. . . .

current mood: sore
current music: Bob Dylan's "Shelter from the Storm" is in my head, for whatever reason.

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Friday, January 9th, 2009
1:39 am - "All human beings are born free and equal in dignity and rights . . .
. . . they are endowed with reason and conscience, and should act towards one another in a spirit of brotherhood."
                    - Article 1 of the Universal Declaration of Human Rights.

Let's not stop fighting and talking and doing whatever we can until it's true.


I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn't have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.



Please, re-post1 if you believe homophobia is wrong.



1I'm copying from [info]forbiddenromanc, who got it from another person, who presumably got it from another person, and so forth; none of the text before this line is mine, although I did italicize. I haven't been around LJ enough in quite a while to see where all else this has appeared previously and very likely won't spot most of its appearances hereafter. I do plan to post an entry of my own more personal creation in the next couple days, but we'll see how that goes.

current mood: dizzy
current music: "Mortal City," Dar Williams

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Monday, September 8th, 2008
12:36 pm
::facepalms::

current mood: Seriously?

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Saturday, May 17th, 2008
12:50 am - 'Cause we just can't believe it ourselves.
TVShowsonDVD has an update from Home Media Magazine on the intended Sports Night: The Complete Series — 10th Anniversary Edition DVD set, which is due for release on September 30th and will likely include 8 discs, Sorkin-Schlamme commentary, a gag reel, maybe even deleted scenes, and more!

current mood: flirty
current music: "Back to You," Kid Lightning

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Sunday, April 27th, 2008
8:21 pm
Others have probably already posted about this, but: heads up, Sports Night fans!

current mood: excited
current music: none, because it would annoy other people in the airport

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Sunday, April 20th, 2008
4:29 pm
Last night I had a dream about Jensen Ackles. All I remember clearly is that we were dating, and yet, we did not kiss.

::scratches head:: Um. What?

I can guess where the blame for the second part of what I recall lies, but the first part -- or the part where Jensen Ackles was in my head at all -- does not compute. I'm assuming that's your faults.

I've been sick for the past week, but I got a solid seven-plus hours of sleep Friday night and crashed for ten hours last night, and I feel a hell of a lot better now. Plus, five days from now, I will be in New York City for the weekend. Six days from now, I will be trying to keep my brain from melting when I meet, in person, the actors portraying the characters in my icon. (If they were in the same state of partial-undress or giving anyone the same looks, I would not survive the experience.)

How are you all doing?

current mood: Meep!
current music: "Have You Passed through This Night?" Explosions in the Sky

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Tuesday, April 1st, 2008
4:42 pm
It's a little funny to me that I am so far behind on LJ, I am only now reading about the planned content strike. I didn't have to make a decision about whether I wanted to participate or not. I might have unintentionally not participated by reading and/or commenting on others' journals that day; I can't remember. If you got a comment from me that day and thought, OMG, she's betraying the cause -- well, "I do not bite my thumb at you, Sir, but I bite my thumb, Sir."

I'm lucky I can remember anything right now, because it feels like my head is just going to fall off my shoulders. I had enough sleep last night, but, gee, that doesn't seem to have made up for weeks of not getting remotely enough. Plus, I sneezed so hard, so many times earlier this afternoon that it made my chest and throat hurt. I'm not only exhausted but also probably getting a cold, and this makes it even less likely I'll feel up to writing the dozens of stories I want to be writing. I owe people things, and I'm sorry about that. If it makes you feel any better, it's not just you. My compositional failure runs the gamut.

current mood: listless

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Saturday, March 8th, 2008
6:36 pm - Take the good stuff when it's offered.
Before anything else, I want to say that you folks are awesome. I did take some additional action related to the previous entry's contents while at work. Other than excruciating, only semi-explicable hip pain all day Wednesday that has, to some extent, persisted through today, that day worked out relatively well, especially because it included an Ani DiFranco concert. Anyway, I'm not looking at or thinking about or in the mood to talk further about that previous entry right now. But I have read your comments, have appreciated your support and suggestions more than I can say, and will respond when I can.

Next, I have some swag! In my very first foray into Sweet Charity participation, I won the services of very fine Hos. I was going to wait and do a roundup of all the loot at once so that I didn't risk anyone feeling pressured, but I am in the mood to share some joy. (Note to any Hos reading this: Do not feel pressured. You rock, and your creations will inherently rock, and there is no rush.)

The first goody I got came in the form of two dozen pieces of biscotti from [info]jmtorres, a delectable chocolate-cranberry variety, with the absolute perfect level of crunchiness, cute tins, and a recipe so that I can attempt making it for myself to boot! I've loved them as dessert, especially with hot chocolate or chai, and also as substitute breakfast on-the-go. Sorry, all I'm sharing is the description, because the rest is was mine, nomnomnom. You'll simply have to imagine me enjoying it.

The second goody was [info]becky_h's Tony DiNozzo/Tim McGee fic set during the "Probie" episode of N.C.I.S., "Tactical Distraction," which brought me all kinds of glee. It has touches of the awkwardness expected in a first-time hookup of these particular two characters, but it doesn't subject them to stereotypical Panic over Being with a Guy, OMG! Becky took the snark and the subtext and the genuine care Tim and Tony have revealed for each other in canon, and she used that to move them naturally to the next step. It's sexy, lovely, and really funny. Go, read, and enjoy for yourself, if you please.

The third goody was Whitful Dreamer's How I Met Your Mother video to Calibretto 13's "High 5." Extremely well put-together and fun, it encapsulates the show, the whole gang, and their relationships excellently. It totally cracks me up. Plus, the Barney/Marshall kiss makes an appearance! It is the only vid that has ever been made on my request (which, in this case, was essentially just for that fandom and song, with all the characters), and I couldn't possibly be more pleased with or have wanted anything more from it. Go, watch, and enjoy for yourself, if you please.

Today all the libraries in my system are closed because of the two-ish feet of snow that have fallen in the past day and the snow that is continuing to fall. Of course, I was on the Friday rotation this week and would've rather we had closed next Saturday, when I'll be starting a seven-day work week, but we did at least close two hours early yesterday -- the next hour of which I spent maneuvering the roads home. ::facepalms::

Our neighbors across the street are attempting to use their riding lawn mower to move the snow. Um.

current mood: The world is still.
current music: "Ice Skating," Heartbreak Orchestra

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Wednesday, February 13th, 2008
11:22 pm
On this week's Nip/Tuck, "August Walden," they did this only minutely spoilery thing ), which made me flail around with a level of glee completely disproportional to the amount of time the thing was happening. Of course, given that said thing was during a surgery, I wasn't even looking at the screen, but that's kind of beside the point. Hee!

. . . And then they did that other, much more spoilery thing ). Dude. Can you say, "issues," Ryan Murphy? Yeah, I thought so.

I have nothing, not even something vague, to say about the end.

current mood: tickled/exasperated/um
current music: See above.

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Thursday, January 10th, 2008
1:27 am
It's time to prompt porn again, and soon will be time to write it. Yay!

You can also participate, by order of most pressing currently applicable deadlines, in the first N.C.I.S. Femslash Ficathon, the Luke/Noah "Make you want to jump in a snowbank" Porn-a-thon, and the new round of [info]choc_fic.

current mood: numb
current music: "The Real You," Peter Stuart

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12:17 am - Aww.
Thank you to whomever gave me a virtual polar bear on my fic journal! That was sweet.

I hope you see my entry here, because I just had to post with my [unfortunately pixelated but undeniably cute] polar bears.

current mood: touched
current music: "Blue Skies," The Black Swans

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Friday, January 4th, 2008
2:25 pm - Are you kidding me with this bullshit?
[info]boyan_fraser has been plagiarizing the userinfo, LiveJournal entries, and other creative works of [info]thamiris -- as well as comments (by her and others) on her entries.

I'm glad folks are already talking about options at [info]tham_preserved and at the link above, because I just -- I just can't process anything beyond the disgust yet.

Edited on January 7th to add: The LJ Abuse Team has suspended [info]boyan_fraser's account.

current mood: infuriated and appalled

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Tuesday, January 1st, 2008
3:14 am - Sober people do stupid things, too.
My family is crazy about recycling, Dad and I especially. For example, we tuck our emptied paper envelopes of sweetener at restaurants into purses or pockets so that we can recycle them once we get home.

I went to a coworker's party tonight, and I offered to take home the small event's bottles, cups, and cans for recycling at the end of the night rather than see them simply thrown in the trash. I also could've been the Designated Driver for anyone who needed it, because I don't drink; that turned out to be a bit ironic.

On my way home, I was already driving more cautiously than usual in an effort to avoid collisions or any kind of interaction with lunatic New Year's Eve drivers, although I consoled myself with the thought that at least, if I got into any kind of accident or got pulled over for any reason, I'd be completely clean for a breathalizer test. However, about halfway through the trip, I suddenly realized I needed to drive even more cautiously and do everything possible to avoid police confrontation. Because I had more than a dozen emptied liquor bottles and beer cans sitting in a bag on the front passenger's side floor, and open -- even emptied -- alcohol containers could get me in a shitload of trouble, regardless of breathalizer results.

I don't know why that potential problem didn't occur to me sooner so that I could've put the bag in the trunk before the drive1, if nothing else. I'm just glad it occurred to me at all, particularly because, about three minutes from home, two police cruisers in a row roared up behind me with their lights flashing and sirens blaring. They kept on going past in pursuit of someone or something else, but, if I'd been less focused, that might not have been the case for both cars and I might be kicking off 2008 much less pleasantly.


1No, I don't know why I didn't pull into a parking lot once I thought of it and shift the bag to the trunk then, other than having my mind set on just getting home.

current mood: relieved & amused
current music: Wally Kurth is singing in my head.

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Wednesday, December 19th, 2007
1:42 pm - Another note to self . . .
You cannot pick up a pinch-hit. You cannot pick up a pinch-hit. You cannot pick up a pinch-hit. You cannot pick up a pinch-hit even though you could write something for any of the four requests! You cannot pick up a pinch-hit. You cannot pick up a pinch-hit. You cannot pick up a pinch-hit. You cannot pick up a pinch-hit. You cannot pick up a pinch-hit, because you got two hours of sleep and still have other stories to polish already! You cannot pick up a pinch-hit. You cannot pick up a pinch-hit. You cannot pick up a pinch-hit. You cannot pick up a pinch-hit. You cannot pick up a pinch-hit. You cannot pick up a pinch-hit.

::sits on hands::

current mood: oh, my god, so crazy!

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Monday, December 17th, 2007
12:08 pm - Finally! Eee!
At long last, Universal plans to release the first season of SciFi's 2000-02 The Invisible Man on DVD here in the U.S. next March!

Although I could be wrong, because I never spent the insane amount of money it would've taken to get them, it seems to me that the two sets of the U.K. first season release a few years ago included more extras than this single Region 1 set will. But some are better than none (yeah, I'm looking at you, Sports Night), and I'll be thrilled to have the episodes on professional DVDs at all.

Presumably the first season will have to sell really well before they'll get around to releasing the second, so, cross your fingers -- and buy a set, if the strike is over by then and you can/want to do so. Yay!

Now, Universal, give me more good news: quit wasting everyone's time calling the police to reject pencil deliveries, round up your compatriots, get back to the negotiating tables, and offer the WGA a fair deal.

current mood: jubilant
current music: "Still Thrives This Love," k.d. lang

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Sunday, December 9th, 2007
12:06 pm
Betas of others' holiday exchange stories completed: 3/4, with the 4th just needing typed up from my handwritten notes on a printout. 4/5. 5/5, and I don't think I can do any more -- at least, not before the [info]yuletide deadline unless you're desperate or I've forgotten already having promised you I'd do it. 5/6. 6/7.
Words of non-holiday exchange story of my own completed and in need of beta: >6,000.
Holiday exchange works of my own completed: Hmm, cannot actually be discussed here, like this.


The non-holiday exchange story is Luke Snyder/Noah Mayer, if anyone is available and willing to take on the task -- pretty please! I have someone who can start betaing it a couple weeks from now, but if it sits on my hard drive that long without anyone else looking at it that whole time, I won't be able to keep from fiddling with it, and it's just going to continue distracting me from all the other writing and editing I need to do. I've already resigned myself to the story getting Jossed by this coming week's canon, but if I can just get it into someone else's hands, to have good reason to tell myself I shouldn't make more changes in the meantime, that would be so helpful. Seriously, I will beg, and I will offer . . . I don't know, something good in return, albeit after the end of the year. These guys have proven Sylaresque in their brain consumption abilities.

current mood: quixotic
current music: music from All over the Guy

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Monday, November 19th, 2007
11:13 pm
::snerk:: This is a little bit awesome.

(I'd appreciate it more if I hadn't felt like throwing up for the past several hours, but, as the saying goes, every little bit helps.)

current mood: amused & unrelatedly nauseated
current music: the cat's meow

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Saturday, November 17th, 2007
11:32 pm
The WGA members and other supporting writers have put down their pencils; now, you can help send some of those pencils to the CEOs.

current mood: procrastinatory

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Tuesday, November 13th, 2007
8:02 pm
Go forth and haiku!

None of the prompts in either haikuathon came from my brain. The reasoning for that is as follows. Before even beginning to tackle potential Heroes prompts, I collected a list of small fandoms -- many, fandoms that hadn't made it into this year's Yuletide nominations or fandoms that I'd offered but not been assigned from those that made it -- for the other challenge. I started listing characters, pairings, and keywords. When just getting into the "B" name fandoms took me more than two hours, I stopped, because I decided that the time it would've taken me to continue creating prompts would be much better spent getting a life writing the actual haiku. Besides which, because (generic) you can write haiku for this challenge without official prompts, I, at least, can still use the same ideas that already occurred to me for unofficial prompts. Yes, it's selfish -- and foolish, in the sense that no one else will be able to make use directly of those ideas -- but I only have so much time and it's not like I should be writing holiday challenge stories or anything anyway, you know?

current mood: embarrassed

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Thursday, November 8th, 2007
9:47 pm - I don't have to start singing, "Solidarity forever," do I?
I have an issue with Monday's Shelf Awareness: Daily Enlightenment for the Book Trade e-newsletter. That edition included what the folks behind it called the "Cool idea of the day. Concerning the Writers Guild of America strike, which begins today and affects TV and movie production, SIBA's Nicki Leone writes, 'Hey wait. We could maybe, you know, READ A BOOK INSTEAD!'"

Now, I work for a major library system. I've been a proud bookworm since wee!Kimhood, long before I got hooked on big and small screens. Regardless of my affection for visual media, I wouldn't dream of denying the value of reading books in general or any scientific research that supports reading as being better for minds young and old than watching a series or film is. However, there's a part of Leone's suggestion that implies -- to both promoters and consumers of books -- that we should sit quietly in a corner at this point. That part implies that we should read our Serious, Professional Titles and just let the people who write Silly Scripts (even, say, those based on the SPT; those that provide platforms for the authors to be interviewed about their SPT; or those that inspire SPT in the forms of tie-in novels, essay collections, behind-the-scenes tomes, etc.) twist in the wind.1 And that is about as "Cool" as is encouraging someone to snub their child in public just because the otherwise great kid was from their partner's other marriage and has red hair.

Discuss?


1I could take that a sidestep further to the non-professionally published fanfiction as well, but you're all smart enough to make the right connections yourselves anyway.

current mood: disappointed
current music: "We Deal in Dreams," Live

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Sunday, November 4th, 2007
12:09 pm
I don't know why I keep discussing superficial things about which everyone else already knows and not anything personal that would be news to you. But here I go again.

How did I not know about buckshotwon? Dude! Adrian Pasdar and his coworkers are entirely too funny/wacky/wicked/awesome for words.

current mood: still dizzy, actually
current music: the "Dirty Deeds" video

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1:19 am
I'm restraining my excitement for a number of reasons but can't help having cautious interest in seeing Dollhouse, whenever and wherever it airs. And now I might have to give another chance to Dirty Sexy Money, too.

In the meantime, again for a number of reasons, which may be only partially obvious -- and none of which should remotely suggest to anyone that I've suddenly become a fan of reality television --, I completely support the WGA.

current mood: dizzy
current music: "Almost Lover," A Fine Frenzy

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Friday, October 26th, 2007
11:12 pm
Although I'd assume others have posted it, too, I first saw this in and am paraphrasing it from [info]celli's journal.

MEME: The first fifteen people to comment on this entry get to request a drabble from me. In return, I'd like for you to post this meme in your journal, with reference to the fandoms in which you're willing to write.

Bear in mind, I'm working on previous prompts (yes, including these) from various people, and I'm writing three holiday challenge stories over the next couple months. But if you're willing to wait a while, go ahead and make the request, and I will get to your drabble -- albeit probably early next year. Fandoms in this Interests list and this Interests list are fair game, and I may be up for various others as well; just ask.

current mood: optimistic
current music: Blood Ties: "5:55"

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Thursday, October 18th, 2007
3:25 pm - out of curiosity
My icon is from a picture I took on my trip to [info]shoshannagold's neck of the woods a few weeks ago. It was gorgeous (even on my dinky little cell phone camera!), and Shosh was wonderful. Plus, I got to meet [info]daemonluna and [info]troutkitty in person! I met [info]therealjae, too. And having [info]antigone921 visit me last week was also wonderful. Shosh and I watched a lot of Fastlane (my doing), while Giu and I watched a lot -- a lot -- of the new Doctor Who and Torchwood (Giu's doing); it's always nice to see how cyclical addiction can be. Ahem. I may get around to sharing more about those visits and more pictures, but it'll probably take a while. In the meantime, you get a poll.

Poll #1073676 Comment Notifications
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All

For those who have the related account option checked, have you been receiving all your LJ comment notification e-mails lately?

View Answers

Yes, for I am a lucky, lucky soul who probably needn't participate in the rest of this poll.
5 (62.5%)

No, but I've only missed a few sporadically.
2 (25.0%)

No, but I'm receiving other LJ communications.
0 (0.0%)

No, and I'm not getting any e-mails sent by LJ itself or sent to my username@livejournal.com address(es) either.
1 (12.5%)

I neither know nor care, and yet I feel the need to click things.
0 (0.0%)

Again, if you have the options selected, have comments on entries in your journal and comments on entries/threads that you've flagged elsewhere been appearing in your LJ on-site Inbox?

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Yes, all of them have been.
2 (50.0%)

Yes, some of them have been.
2 (50.0%)

No, none of them has been.
0 (0.0%)

I neither know nor care, and yet I feel the need to click things.
0 (0.0%)

For how long have you been noticing these problems in this instance?

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Days.
0 (0.0%)

Weeks.
1 (33.3%)

Months.
2 (66.7%)

Years.
0 (0.0%)

The entire time I've had my journal(s).
0 (0.0%)

Have you tried everything suggested in the LJ FAQ area at http://www.livejournal.com/support/faqbrowse.bml?faqid=115?

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Of course I have.
1 (33.3%)

Nah, I haven't been bothered enough to do so yet.
2 (66.7%)

Well, I did a couple suggestions, and I got the matter resolved/the matter resolved itself.
0 (0.0%)

When you contacted your e-mail provider, what problems, if any, could they identify and fix?

If you've contacted LJ Support about this situation lately, what did they say besides, essentially, 'see the above FAQ point'?

Might it, perhaps, be clobbering time?

View Answers

I'm a pacifist, so, no, but I'll go with nonviolent alternatives.
1 (33.3%)

YES.
0 (0.0%)

It might, indeed.
2 (66.7%)

Do you have anything else to add or clarify on this poll?



I should've included the "I neither know nor care, and yet I feel the need to click things" option on the "clobbering time" question and a couple of the others as well. You can pretend it's there and state that as your answer in comments. I'll keep checking this entry URL for replies.

This is just a reminder: sign-ups for this year's [info]yuletide and [info]sn_holidays -- and possibly other holiday fannish exchanges of which I am unaware -- close today. I've submitted my Yuletide requests and offers, although, if I have time now that some of my family from California is in town, I might still resubmit to eliminate a couple possible unintentionally offered pairings, and I still need to finish deciding what to request but I've completed my sign-up for the Sports Night exchange. For what are you waiting?

current mood: discontent

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